I can only imagine, how much I could've helped other babiatos If I were here as long as you areOh sorry. I didn't read your post completely.
Why, as @DisMissive mentioned, are you not interacting more with this community? Most of the people here are super amazing and kindhearted willing to offer help if needed!
You also could offer some help to others be it by answering a question, sharing your knowledge, tools or resources, even giving some motivational or inspiring advice
This is truly a paradise-of-a-forum so enjoy it as much as you can while it lasts